Monday, December 27, 2010

Happy Holidays!!

Merry Christmas!! (I know it's kinda late. And saying Happy New Year would be a bit too early). So... Happy Holidays na lang!!

WARNING: This might be a long post to make up for the weeks I haven't posted.

I know everyone is super busy with all the parties and get-together's, reunions.... because I sure was! But, I can't talk about how swamped my schedule was because that would be sooo boring. Instead let me bask about those sweet precious moments with people that matter......

It started at Cebu (Plantation Bay/Shangri-La)-Bohol with our DXN Family, the first week of December. Although I had to encounter the "Joker's of our life". I know Batman has only one Joker... and a Deck of cards only has 2. But, our family's got 4 Joker's in our life left. But the Joker's are on a different story. I had fun communing with the DXN Family at the trip. Reconnected with friends from around Pinas. Those travel seminar incentives we have are like some sort of leader's gathering/reunion. Huge. with 325 participants and was even recognized by the Mayor (government) of Cebu. :)

Then there's the get together of my HS Buds Matet and Mona. Matet is a Medical Student and they designed this "Adopt A Child For Christmas" Party.. and so we joined in on the fun. And went to the pool afterwards.

Then another dose of DXN Davao Family Pool Party on the 18th. Super Super Fun!

And then on the 21st... the bonding with the Firstborns. Which was an overnight affair. We spent most of our time on Cris's car. Talking... while the rest of the guys did their thing. Hehe. It was fun.. oooh and what a lovely moon it was!

23rd.... wedding bells were ringing. As one of the "Firstborns" got married. Awwwww. Who is next??? :)

Of course on the 24th-25th... was our the time for the biological family. They visited our home on the 24th and there were constant friends who made their annual visit. And our traditional "exchange gift". Yayyyy! Oohh the faces of the kids with their gifts was priceless.

And yesterday(26th)... we went out-of-town to visit my mom's Aunt who was the one who assisted my mom in finishing her studies when our grand parent's separated.

So... yeah... I saw most of my friends this December except my College Buds. :( But, I'm sure one of these days we will all catch up! :)

By the way.. I'd like to extend my deepest gratitude to Ms. N. for the package she sent me! Yes, she sent one of my wishlist for PM's "All I want for Christmas". :)

It's the 2011 Power Planner (Belle De Jour) over there. *points points*

And yes... it was a fun Christmas... since I finally got the set of Harry Potter series that was my High School fancy!! Grabe. Talk about delayed gratification. And mom put me to sooo much drama that time just to surprise me, I cried because I almost thought I'm not having it this year...

See ? You always get what you want... sometimes it is just not NOW. :P

Monday, November 15, 2010

Enriching Lives and Fulfilling Dreams

Recently, I was asked by DXN's Sales and Training Manager Mr. Paul to host the 11th Year Anniversary of DXN.

My heart automatically screamed yes! (It's not really a dream, but I have this penchant of trying new things and it'd be one for my bucket list.) But, then suddenly my mind was filled with doubt specially when it comes to moments when one has to come up with adlibs. Nevertheless, I said: "Wow! Walang problema. Medyo scary ha. Diba po may mga rehearsals yan?"

I immediately asked for the rehearsals since I'd be needing that because it will be my first time. And it's not some hosting stint where you will be given 500 guests but close to 10,000-12,000!!!!!!!!

And of course, I made kulit to get the script just so I have an idea. But, I only got the draft. So, I scoured for tips online which were not much really. And tried to catch one of my "DJ" friend Aron, but never got around to it.

Three days before the event, I flew to Manila for the rehearsals. There were a few mishaps about the time but nevertheless 2 days before the event, I was introduced to 2 of my co-hosts, Lory, and Roy. And a day before the event, we met Rick and Ami to complete the party of five. Sir Paul was our coach. :) The rehearsal was fun! We'd joke around and try to come up with our very own adlibs since we were free to change what was written on the script according to our personality. :P

(Photo: L-R: Ami, Lory, Rick, Makata, Me and Roy)

Anyway, DXN's 11th Year Anniversary here in the Philippines last November 6, 2010 at Cuneta Astrodome was a SUCCESS!

Of course, it wasn't perfect, we were given the final script on the day of the event. But, we kind of got the idea of the flow already. But during the awarding ceremonies ,we ditched our scripts, since, our DXN director made a few changes. Major changes, that even us as "hosts" were surprised by the whole thing but managed to pull everything off.

(Mom, the Cake, Mr. Ed Hao, and Dato Dr. Lim Siow Jin (CEO))

You see, our CEO was supposed to arrive as a surprise to give the highest award which was Crown Ambassador which will be received by my Dad and Mom. But, Dad was unable to make it so it was Mom who walked down the aisle with the rest of the new Crown Diamond Awardees.

And MYYY GULAAAYY! The reaction of the people. I wonder when will I be given the full video of the whole thing..... mhmmmm

(Photo: L-R: Rick, Lory, Me, Ami and Roy)

Good camaraderie of hosts and the staff was the key to pulling everything off. And that we always focus on what needs to be done and the result in the end which was making 12,000 people happy. One good thing, they say was that there was no "dull moment" or spaced out moment because we would help each other out. Also, the A2Z Band was the besssstttt!!! Rock and Rollllll!!!

I heard it was the best DXN Anniversary! And when 3 of the hot shots were asked to rate the anniversary on a scale of 1 to 10. 1 the lowest and 10 the highest. They gave the anniversary this: 9, 10 and 10.1.

and our CEO was so enthused, he exclaimed: "We should do this every year!"

It was an amazing experience to host the anniversary. We gave our time and effort as pro bono to the company. I actually just wanted the experience and to give back to the company who helped a lot of people make their lives better and fulfilled their dreams. Including mine!

Everyone was in high spirits when it ended. And my energy kind of depleted. I wasn't able to eat that much before the show because it might send me to the bathroom in no time. Nyahaha. How about next year??? Well next year, i'll hit the backstage or be a floor manager! HAHAHA.

Congratulations to all the AWARDEES!! Next year... awardee na ako dapat! Woooo.DAPAT. Universe? Woohooo.. You listening? :)

Actually the Anniversary inspired me to do more. A lot of people in DXN, is encouraging me to do even better. I've seen people who never got a college degree, but now, they look, talk and walk like some guy with a PHD! This business made a lot of household lives better and healthier. Oh, the joy!

In this business, I call myself a social business entrepreneur. Where I am not just in this business to make money.... but I am in this business to change our "society". And it starts by helping people reach their full potential in achieving their dreams and visions for the future! It's better than just making money, right? :)

Credits: My Angels and ESP, Edsel of Kasuotan, Ms. Roma (Hair &Makeup), Ate Alice, Mr. JP Bedia (Coach), Ms. Lhen, Mr. Dennis, Ms. Honey, Ms. Thess, Ms. Anna, Ms. Mechelle, Ms. Rolyn, and more.

Tuesday, November 02, 2010

Hello November!

I don't know why I'm saying hello to November.... but maybe because I feel this month has a lot in store for me. Haha. Sweet surprises perhaps?

So.. yeah... November please be good to me.....

I've been in and out of town lately. Thus the lack of updates.

Will probably talk about my seminar-venture in UAE.

There were no Desert Safari for me, or any of those gold stores or whatever. Just plain visit to four states of UAE. and the hoarding of gadgets. Hardly hoarding. Just the essentials. Nyahahaha.

But, I'm definitely coming back for the desert safari.... one day. And, I better have me a husband... it's hard to get a SINGLE WOMAN a VISA to visit Qatar, Kuwait and the rest of the Gulf countries. But, well... that's not the priority. I'll go to countries where it's easy to get me a single woman a visa... like, say.... Europe. Wooohoo.

Sunday, October 24, 2010

All I Want For Christmas

I just got around to browsing PM's post which she messaged me about since I haven't been online the past few days. Anyhooo.... when I got to read PM's post about "Gift Swapping" with blogger friends I got excited and of course would love to join in on the fun!

And if you want to join the activity spearheaded by PM, you can check out her post here: ALL I WANT FOR CHRISTMAS. Like she said, the more, the merrier!! :)

Something small: Vintage Pendant or Locket. =)

Something big: Large Stuffed Teddy BEARRR!! or a Panda will do. *giggles*

Something cute: anything "angel" inspired is cute for me. :)

Something soft: a pink/purple pillow!!! (small or big is okay.)

Something techie: a Samsung Galaxy ? haha. thats too much. Just Kidding. a pink headphone will do... or a pink wireless mouse. or a pink mousepad. oh di ba? basta pink. okay na ako. or purple or emerald or turquoise.

Something fancy: a wand from the Whimsic Alley, preferably this. =)

Something (insert your favorite color): pink pendulum! =)

Something wearable: a girly shawl or scarf. :)

Something you need: a book about angels, love, fairies or anything mystical or any book from Robert Ludlum, Marianne Williamson, Marc Gafni, Doreen Virtue, Paolo Coelho. I don't mind if it's second hand. :)

Something you can use for work: a 2011 Belle De Jour Power Planner :P

Something sweet: cheesecake!!! or a Swiss chocolate will do (any brand).

All I Want For Christmas: round trip ticket to Palawan :P

so there you go... i hope it won't be too hard for you. anything angel inspired, or anything pink/purple/emerald/turquoise will do naman for me eh. :)

Friday, October 01, 2010

Got A Crush

It just dawned on me.... I'm crushing on someone. *Laughter*

It took me a long time to admit that I really am crushing on him. And if I mention where I met him.... it's gonna be obvious to the people I know in real life. Nyahaha. OMG. OMG. I can't get him off my mind lately. And to think I haven't seen him for weeks!!!!!

And no.. I don't have his number. Too bad.

I can't believe I'm back to my high school days.

Meanwhile.. let me just blow bubbles in the air..... :P

via (dallasdee)

Thursday, September 23, 2010

Keep the Faith

(via thedisneyprincess)

hulloh, everybody!

hope everyone's doing great.....

i miss watching disney movies... maybe i'll download some of them.

my kinda therapy! :P

oh and yeah...

(via xoxoeman:)

with that cake!

but, i'll finish with my own doze of male hormones first.... Jack Bauer of 24 keeps me entertained. *bang bang bang*

Sunday, September 19, 2010

Stop and Surrender

Now, I stopped trying to control events, and just trust and have faith that everything will fall into a natural order, one that works.

you know the popular saying:

(via heymrblue)

so... yeah. and that the good thing about things falling apart, is that you can choose to pick up which pieces you want to have in your life.

I'm just resting while a power much greater than me takes over. :) (thinking about rest, makes me want to go have a massage!!!! i BADLY NEED ONE! maybe mamaya before i go to sleep.)

but, but, i have to get back on track. I have a "challenge", I'm working out on..... some goal.. which I will reveal as soon as I ACHIEVE it. it's in my PRIORITY FOLDER.

The recent uhmmm experience I had, I mentioned was terrible, right? It almost shattered a belief, that I keep holding on to... but, then... my angels are always around to keep me back on track. I have always believed that you need not a lot of pain and suffering to grow. Because, Jesus said: "It is finished". But, of course... you have a choice to go through all that. And like many gurus would say: "There are many paths to the mountain top."

I've always believed that Love operates on a win-mode. Being successful in life need not have a lot of negative tension involved, and that we don't really have to struggle all the time.

So... I surrender and just love. :) It's like I'm melting into another world. Some may call it a fantasy, but sometimes the truth can seem like a fantasy. Of course, I still have a feet on both worlds. And someone taught me how to take the rose-colored glasses off, if necessary. And, I did.

They say the world changes, when we change. It reflects back to us what we have been giving all along. It softens when we soften. It opens when we open our hearts.

It's this moment when LOVE matters more than anything. Not psychology, not neurosis. Just Love. That warm feeling, that despite all those broken promises, shattered dreams, half truths, hostility, you found a way to stop fighting the world... and let things be.

There'd be moments I may forget, but that's part of our journey....

*spreads the love to y`all*

peace IN! (haha. trying to be cool, eh?)

Thursday, September 16, 2010

broken promises

Today, marks one of the hardest choices to make in my life. I think if I was Venus Raj, answering the "major major" question. (feeling ko Ms. Universe eh ano?) This one would be my answer. Although, I'd buckle up with the answer because I was never the smart "talker", I stutter when my emotions are involved. I swear, if I don't do something about this, I will go join the Toast Masters.

I can't really explain everything that happened. Some things will remain private. Some things will remain in my "journal" and the rest might as well be left unwritten. All I can say, that everything was odd.

So many things were left unsaid for my emotions got the better of me. But, I guess that doesn't matter now. All I know, it was good while it lasted and everything was just perfect even though the "end" was abrupt and horrible.

I kind of hated myself for making promises I couldn't keep. I wanted to keep it, but I'm too scared to take it. Yes, my dear angels, I'm not ready for love it seems. All along, I thought I was, but I was uninitiated. I lack the emotional skills to hold on to the magic when the storm came.

I can't tell myself that it wasn't real for me. For, I would just be lying to myself. But, it was also hard to tell, because there were lies involved at the beginning. The facts may have been all a lie, but there was a moment, that tiny spark, that glimmer, that love visited. And that I will cherish. It will be hard to forget the songs. It's filled with bittersweet memories and broken promises.

I felt the sadness, and I was gullible enough that the good intentions I have, backfired. I got scared with the domino effect. Fear got ahead of me. And so, I had to step out from the "fantasy" we made.

It was grim and excruciating. There's a certain hardness that developed in my soul. And I hope the tears will take them away. Tears for the humiliating failure I made.

I don't even know why I felt the need to post this. Maybe, I just want to commemorate this day, and also the past three days, for this will mark another chapter of my life.

To some this can be a lesson, and for awhile I thought it was just that. But, going deeper, this was a soulful experience, one that I have probably asked, and I couldn't say I came out victorious.

But, I asked for this. I live a sheltered life. I live with my books. I do meet people from all walks of life from the nature of business that I am in, and lately I have been disconnected from them. I felt I was stagnating. And in a sense, I created this experience, to keep me from stagnating.

Oh my, what a ride, this was.

Yesterday, while I was in my room walking around, beseeching my guides to help me, I saw a praying mantis on top of my bed. I was startled at first, because I haven't seen one for years.

and I knew there was some sort of a reason why it appeared at that moment. And so, I searched online for the meaning and here's what I got:

The mantis comes to us when we need peace, quiet and calm in our lives. Usually the mantis makes an appearance when we've flooded our lives with so much business, activity, or chaos that we can no longer hear the still small voice within us because of the external din we've created.
A quick-list of praying mantis symbolism:
  • Stillness
  • Awareness
  • Creativity
  • Patience
  • Mindful
  • Calm
  • Balance
  • Intuition
This is a message to us to contemplate and be sure our minds and souls all agree together about the choices we are making in our lives.

Overwhelmingly in most cultures the mantis is a symbol of stillness. As such, she is an ambassador from the animal kingdom giving testimony to the benefits of meditation, and calming our minds.

An appearance from the mantis is a message to be still, go within, meditate, get quite and reach a place of calm. It may also a sign for you to be more mindful of the choices you are making and confirm that these choices are congruent.

Source: Animal Symbolism

I can't say I am fine. I am still grieving.

This is a road I have to take on my own....

Wednesday, September 08, 2010

For LDR's that went down the drain

I found the following article over at Tumblr.... and I know more and more people are having LDR's. I find that it does make sense. :P

and No.. this is not what I am currently feeling now. =) in fact... i'm happy... and chirpy and looking forward to the future... and yeah... learning the craft in the business that I am in. Ahhhh.. I need more like minded individuals. Ooohh... I know I'd meet them along the way. :)

anyhow... just wanted to share the article over here. ;) see ya around guys!

for the original post: DayDream

Don’t ever use distance as an excuse to break up or separate. If anything, it’s that one of you don’t feel the same about the other anymore. If you were together in the first place, it must mean that you were both committed to make it work. But later on down the road, if you say you’re separating because of distance, then I would have to disagree. Unless you’re one of those people who were in the relationship just for physical needs.

It’s not distance that makes you want to separate, it’s the level of commitment that you’re willing to give into the relationship. Because distance only makes the heart grow fonder. If you really did like the person, you’d be more committed. You’d want to talk to that person almost all the time. You’d text or call. Go out of your way just to say “Hi” or “I miss you”. It doesn’t even take a minute to send a text or just call to say hi.

Everyone needs assurance. Without it, we’re lost. It takes two to tangle, and it takes two to cuddle. If one person has no idea what the other person is thinking, how are we suppose to deal/react to the situation? It’s like being left in the pitch black darkness. Assurance is the light that keeps us going. If you’re not committed, then say so. Reassure the person that you don’t feel the same. Don’t ever keep someone waiting just because you know they will. Hearts are the last thing you should be playing with.

If you’re ever gonna end a relationship, don’t ever say it’s because of distance. That’s lame. If anything, it’s you and the decrease of commitment you want to give into the relationship. If only one person is committed, it might as well turn into unrequited love.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Congratulations Venus!

Even if she didn't win the crown......

Getting into the Top 5 is already something!

So cheers to Venus Raj! We appreciate you!

for a clearer picture of the screen capture: Venus Raj

Screen Cap from palabas.

makes you forget the bad thing yesterday, eh? -_-


Thursday, August 19, 2010

K10 and KTina

Finally, I joined the Rotaract of Munting Pag-Asa Davao yesterday. I've been mulling over it the past few months from the impending invitation by my beloved friend Ate Jireh. She has been a huge influence when it comes to helping people. And I get ideas by what she does. :) Thanks for the pleasant welcome guys! I appreciate it. /me is very happy to work with y'all. Service to others. Eee--yeahh!

I know helping people usually comes spontaneously and by joining groups, maybe it won't be that at all. But, i was listening to Les Brown and he was saying about getting involved in communities that would help people. And connecting with people with the same agendas in mind. Of course, I said to myself: "I won't lose my "random acts of kindness" activity. Those in the moment things I constantly engage myself into, specially if I am in a loving mood."

And it was quite fitting that Rochelle and I was inducted yesterday, in time for the Kadayawan Celebration. Kadayawan is a special event for Davao and for me. I don't know I just feel excited whenever the festivity is drawing near. The major streets would be oozing with exotic fruits (durian, jackfruit, rambutan, lansones, mangosteen) and lots of freebies and discounts. But, more than that... the air is filled with music inspired by the natives that gives you this upbeat feeling.

Back to the the meeting, it was festive and was pretty much Kadayawan inspired. :)

The highlight of the meeting was the "Ikebana" demonstration by Lady Veronica Tirol.

and it deserves a post.. all on its own. I'll recount the basic Ikebana demonstration soon. :)

There's so many things I want to share... i'll share it to you soon.

Kadayawan 2010, is nicknamed K10 this year. Aside from 10 symbolizing the year 2010, it also represents the 10 distinguished tribes of Davao City and it is also the 10 keys of why Kadayawan is open for celebration for the year 2010.











for the full article: K10.

Anyway.. here's the list of schedules for Kadayawan 2010:


Date Start : 2010-08-20
Date End : 2010-08-20
Venue : Rizal Park

Date Start : 2010-08-20
Date End : 2010-08-20
Venue : Davao City Recreational Center (formerly Almendras Gym)

Date Start : 2010-08-21
Date End : 2010-08-21
Venue : 7 am Street Dancing at CM Recto, San Pedro, Pelayo, Bonifacio, Ponciano, Roxas Avenue & 3 PM Showdown

Date Start : 2010-08-22
Date End : 2010-08-22
Venue : Tionko Field

Date Start : 2010-08-22
Date End : 2010-08-22
Venue : Rizal Park

Date Start : 2010-08-22
Date End : 2010-08-22
Venue : San Pedro Cathedral

Date Start : 2010-08-22
Date End : 2010-08-22

Date Start : 2010-08-01
Date End : 2010-08-31
Venue : SM City Davao Future Development Site

Date Start : 2010-08-08
Date End : 2010-08-08
Venue : Roxas Ave.

Date Start : 2010-08-11
Date End : 2010-09-11
Venue : Museo Dabawenyo

Date Start : 2010-08-12
Date End : 2010-08-20
Venue : Fairlanes Bowling Center

Date Start : 2010-08-14
Date End : 2010-08-14
Venue : NCCC Mall Activity Area

Date Start : 2010-08-14
Date End : 2010-08-15
Venue : Davao City National High School

Date Start : 2010-08-15
Date End : 2010-08-21
Venue : SM City Event Center

Date Start : 2010-08-15
Date End : 2010-08-15
Venue : NCCC Mall Car Park

Date Start : 2010-08-15
Date End : 2010-08-21

Date Start : 2010-08-15
Date End : 2010-08-15
Venue : SM CityEvent Center

Date Start : 2010-08-16
Date End : 2010-08-19
Venue : Gaisano Mall of Davao

Date Start : 2010-08-16
Date End : 2010-08-21
Venue : Peoples Park and NCCC Mall

Date Start : 2010-08-16
Date End : 2010-08-22
Venue : Sanguniang Panlungsod Lobby & NCCC Mall (open on mall hours)

Date Start : 2010-08-18
Date End : 2010-08-18
Venue : WiSons Shopping Mall, Anda St.

Date Start : 2010-08-18
Date End : 2010-08-21
Venue : Apo View Hotel

Date Start : 2010-08-19
Date End : 2010-08-20
Venue : Central Bank

Date Start : 2010-08-19
Date End : 2010-08-22
Venue :

Date Start : 2010-08-19
Date End : 2010-08-22
Venue : Central Bank

Date Start : 2010-08-20
Date End : 2010-08-21
Venue : NCCC Mall

Date Start : 2010-08-20
Date End : 2010-08-20
Venue : Deca Wakeboard Park, Brgy. Tacunan

Date Start : 2010-08-20
Date End : 2010-08-20
Venue : NCCC Mall Activity Center

Date Start : 2010-08-21
Date End : 2010-08-21
Venue : Gaisano Mall of Davao

Date Start : 2010-08-21
Date End : 2010-08-21
Venue : SM City Event Center

Date Start : 2010-08-21
Date End : 2010-08-21
Venue : SM City Davao Future Development Site

Date Start : 2010-08-21
Date End : 2010-08-21
Venue : Lantawan Hall, Royal Mandaya Hotel

Date Start : 2010-08-21
Date End : 2010-08-21
Venue : Rizal Park

Date Start : 2010-08-22
Date End : 2010-08-22
Venue : Davao Crocodile Park

whoah! I never expected the list of events would be this long! i did not even post everything. i just posted those events i'm interested.

so, you see... we have fun filled events depending on your taste: from fashion to music, from star-filled events to mingling with the locals, sports (wakeboarding, motocross, mixed martial arts) to a whole lot more. AND Yeah... don't forget the cheap food and discounts! Haha.

to Dabawenyos and the tourists.. enjoy!!!

Photos Courtesy of Bom Aportadera(President).

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

my envy post paid off

Blogger Tisha said...

hi i'm tisha.. i just found your blog through google. i was reading your entry about envy.. it was really helpful because i actually need to do a presentation about envy tomorrow. so i just wanted to say thank you. and its cool your filipina too! so am i!
take care

February 25, 2008 11:20 AM

Hi Tisha! I am also grateful that it helped your presentation. :)

i know this is like a message two years ago.. but i just remembered this comment. hehe. glad my blog posts are helping people. :)

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Tang Jumpstarts a Refreshing Ramadan

Yesterday, was the start of a month-long period of fasting for the Islamic community - the Ramadan. And it was quite fitting that Kraft Foods Philippines (KFP), the second largest food and beverage company in the world, held a press conference yesterday(August 11, 2010) at Davao City(Mindanao), offering a gift to our Muslim brothers and sisters for having "Tang" certified by the Philippine IDCP (Islamic Da'wah Council of the Philippines) Halal. Tang is already certified in the region by the Central Islamic Committee of Thailand back in 2006.

"Making today delicious for everyone is a global mandate for Kraft Foods and we intend to enliven this through this initiative. It's part of our commitment to engage our brothers and sisters in Mindanao, particularly those who will be observing Ramadan, by being supportive of cultural practices and beliefs," says Cynthia D. Icasas, Category Manager for Kraft Foods Philippines. It wasn't their first to support the community here in Mindanao, but they already had 2 previous community outreach programs that they spearheaded.

Tang is currently the leading powdered beverage in the world and available in more than 30 countries. "It has always been Tang's proposition to get kids to drink more water, by making water more exciting for everyone in the country," says Doroty Arroyo, Senior Brand Manager for Tang. "So we really pushed and worked towards getting Tang, Philippine Halal-certified as a way of showing our commitment, anchored on fulfilling Kraft's promise of making every day delicious for everyone."

Cheers to Kraft Foods Philippines, making every day delicious!

*is drinking a glass of Tang Orange Juice.*

*Attended the press conference of Kraft Foods / Tang with the bloggers from Davao. (: With us was Doroty Arroyo (Senior Brand Manager for Tang), Cynthia D. Icasas (Category Manager for Kraft Foods Philippines) and Atty. Abdul Rahman Linzag (President/CEO of Islamic Da’wah Council of the Philippines).

Saturday, August 07, 2010

Tumblr Fever

i think i'm addicted to "tumblr" already. currently fixated with all the photos and quotes im seeing over there.


I'm seeing my dreams fly by over there.

Photos. Photos of bedrooms I fancy. Photos of jewelries i must have one day. Photos of places to visit. Photos of lovely moments. Photos of cute animals. Photos of my favorite disney princess. Photos of drinks. Photos of chocolates and candies. Photos of cakes and sweets. and moreeee.

Lovely words and phrases of my favorite authors. favorite icons. of wonderful people.

But, of course.... if you want the story behind every photo... nothing beats the old school blogging. :)

So yeah, it's taking up my time. and i'm enjoying my moment.

If you have your own tumblr do tell me.. so I can follow it. :)

My TUMBLR ---> Angelblush

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Real Love

Much has been said about love. For it is everything. And so to some.. you wouldn't need any words to describe how it makes you feel and that all these words are nothing compared to the moment you have it with you.... nor does it end with that feeling.

But... it is a lifestyle.. some sort of a religion, where each lover remains to be each other priest or priestess...

and i found this "Real Love" by Eric Hurtgen (Relevant Magazine) article over at tumblr. and thought it's a worthy piece that i would love to look back on.. one day.

if wine is bottled poetry.. then i think articles and words like these can also give you the certain feeling you get whenever you drink wine - warm, hot... fill in the blank...

don't you think? :p

the ones in bold.. i have felt with a certain someone. *yay* Recently. :)

Real Love never parades itself outside in the streets, letting everyone know just how real it is. Real Love never needs an agent, a manager or a public relations guy. It doesn’t need an ad campaign or clever salesmen to move its product or drum up business. Real Love rarely sends out flyers to let everyone know it’s in the neighborhood.

Real Love has talent, has a real gift, but it doesn’t orchestrate the camera angles to maximize its potential. And it never has to slip money into an unnoticed hand to get into a gig or sell itself out to slide in through the back door. Real Love is content to wait quietly outside talking to the stage hands.

Real Love never needs a dozen roses and a nice car for the first date, and it doesn’t start out with the lobster and chardonnay. Real Love won’t lie in the heat of the moment to have its way, and it never uses all the right words to get what it wants. Real Love usually takes things slowly and gets better with age.

Real Love smiles even when it’s unfashionable to do so and never holds back tears. It looks good without makeup on and isn’t afraid to go out in public unprepared. Real Love quit rambling on about nothing a long time ago and doesn’t worry that it might not have anything to say right now. Real Love looks you in the eye during the awkward silences.

When it’s treated cruelly or quietly snubbed, Real Love never turns inward or burns spitefully. It never calls up mutual friends to vent in anger or stoops to pettiness to have its revenge.

Real Love is quietly hopeful and devastatingly kind. It’s always on time, and it doesn’t quit just because the shift is over. Real Love is surprising, like a night out under the stars. And though it usually prefers the softest touches, Real Love has strength enough to fend off all other suitors.

Real Love is not a gamble, a ruse or a phase. It’s not faddish or shallow, too young or too old. It’s cross-cultural and counter-cultural and sub-cultural. It doesn’t favor big bank accounts or the most beautiful faces, and it rarely comes around when it’s not called. Real Love likes the lowest voices and shows little respect for the big booming ones, though it doesn’t count them out just because they don’t get it right now.

Real Love is a movement, an affection and an arrow pointing home; it is a peace, a precept and a personality. It knows about forever and ever, and it works just fine in the now and the here. And Real Love doesn’t need a clever tag line at the end to get its point across one last time.

-Eric Hurtgen, via Relevant Magazine

Monday, July 19, 2010

Day 4 - Your Sibling

Well.. I have two.

I am the eldest.

Then there's Darlene..... :)

She's as sweet as honey but as grumpy as a bear when you catch her in one of her moods. We share a room since FOREVER. I'm kind of lemme see.. disorganized while she is very orderly. She'd smile when she would catch me sweeping the floor of our room or try to arrange my wild array of books. I occupy most of the cabinets surrounding our room, by the way.

She's very picky when it comes to clothes. Preferring to have her own style. Usually she dons on a skirt and a jacket with a hoodie. Yes, always a jacket. The safest gift I could prolly give her is that. A jacket. Because if i buy her some dress or a blouse, she might wrinkle her nose.

She hates it whenever I would watch a certain movie before her. Specially if it involves the Twilight Saga. So, i always make it a point to watch it with her first.

She loves to draw... and she has a sweet voice. She rarely sings in public because she says she is shy. But, whenever i am around... I push her to sing. Hehe. She'd grudgingly sing... and I'm sensing she enjoys it, she's just too shy to admit it.

She loves anything chinky. Korean. Chinese. Japanese. Taiwanese. Tae Young. KPop. Kim Bum. Polpot. Chairman Mao. Kim Chi. Lychee. She'd make me watch Korean movies, korean MV's and to my dismay it awakens the cheesy melodramatic self inside of me.

She's a ball of emotions. Artistic. And most of all a sister. :)

I don't tell her about my love life - that much. Not the details. But, she knows when I am in love or not. She knows how to make "zee smile" appear. By, just mentioning the right name.... and "ka-boom" she'd catch me. And then, she'd know. That's having a sister. You don't need to tell it all... but she knows. Oooh yeah.. she knows.

*gives Darlene a sweet bear hug*

There's my BIG little brother Paolo.

Yeah. BIG. Since, he is taller than me. :(

Sometimes he frustrates me by being a Peter Pan lately. Maybe, because he knows there's always someone around to pick up his slack. But, then right now... we are just making him enjoy his "high school" life.

He is very happy-go-lucky. He plays soccer. He is friendly. But, if you get on his nerves... you would really get on his nerves. LOL. I could name three people he is completely annoyed with. When he sees them, he would boil.

Most of the time, he is cute. When he would ask me, what gel to use, what spray's got the best scent. Or when he asks me: "Is what I'm wearing, Ok?".

We get into fights most of the time, specially when I ask him to do this, get that, throw this, call that. But, I think that's very common. One good thing about him, is that he doesn't hold on to his grudges for long. Only with those 3 people.

He loves to tease me too. And I tease him back.

I wonder.... how it would be if he actually makes "ligaw" one of these days.

Would he ask me, what to give his would-be girlfriend? Would he even? I doubt he would if I would tease him about it. I think i'll lay off the teasing. :)

So, yeah... those are my siblings in a nutshell. :)


I don't think I can post those "DAYS". It's not as exciting as I started. Oh well.

Back to my random posts.

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Saturday, July 17, 2010

Dengue Fever

and yes... it is indeed rampant nowadays.

People I know have been getting dengue. Here and there and everywhere.

I don't have the CURE. Because, nothing can fight off DENGUE, or any disease for that matter.... EXCEPT YOUR BODY.

Yes, your body. Your BODY IS THE BEST DOCTOR. Our body is designed to WARD OFF DISEASES. And, it's really amazing.

But, why do people get sick?

It is because we haven't been supplying our body the right amount of vitamins and nutrients to boost our IMMUNE SYSTEM. It's like in some computer game where you need IMMUNITY or else you lose your HEALTH fast. Our Maker also provided us with FRUITS, VEGETABLES and HERBS for that.

But, lately... nobody is eating right. Thus, our immune system weakens and all sorts of diseases unheard of back in the old days are appearing.

It's like a car who runs on diesel. But, you kept giving the car GAS.. and not the diesel it needs. So, it will malfunction.

Anyway, since we are talking about DENGUE... i'm gonna be suggesting... a sure fire way of boosting your immune system specially if you are in the hospital suffering from DENGUE.

I tell you, I have known lots of cases.... whose platelet count ranges from 10-100 and by drinking this stuff.... you wouldn't need blood transfusion... and you get out of the hospital the soonest. Other people respond really fast... the next day they were given the "discharge slip". And we have cases who have been to ICU already... and they get off the next day.

I have access of this certain "supplement" but you can also have other alternatives should you know anybody selling the same thing. I just wanted less "mortality rate" when it comes to DENGUE... because HONESTLY... it is as EASY as one, two, three. and it saddens me when I hear countless of kids dying from something which I know I can be of help.

Of course I can't barge in on the hospitals or the media that I know of "something" which can help your BODY FIGHT OFF DENGUE. I repeat, YOUR BODY FIGHTING OFF DENGUE. This supplement is not the CURE. IT will just AID your BODY. (I don't want the medical doctors raging on and on about claiming i have the cure because I don't).

Now, i know.. CONVENTIONAL DOCTORS would be against this. Although, I've known open minded DOCTORS who doesn't delve into "belief" but focuses on the facts and results.

(the products i have access with... got INSURANCE or PRODUCT LIABILITY and got awards as the "best herbal supplement" year 2005. and im not gonna be posting the brand. You can just message me here and give me your number and i will get back to you.)

but then...

Uhmm i was searching online and all that. I wanna give the names here in this post sana but.... im opting to give you the names if you are interested through text message or email na lang. I don't wanna ruffle feathers of the medical field and the pharamaceuticals company. :)

and here is one of my favorite documentary of all time after The Secret and the 11th Hour:


Monday, July 05, 2010

Day 3 - Your Parents


Papa and Mama.

There is so much to say about them. And a blog entry wouldn't be enough for the gratitude i felt for them. and love of course.

we've had hard times... and of course good times. we get into discussions, disagreements over simple and the most complex of issues. but, in the end what matters is the bind that connects us - the love of a family.

the way they brought me up might be a reason for me to "rebel". to outsiders, i seem to live a very "not-so-free" life. and that im sure most people have often commented: "wow. that's hardcore." but, i never really took it against them. we all thought they are "kill joy", yeah sometimes they can be that and it is true.. but just remember the intentions of their heart.

and now, im in my 20's.. i get to reason, cajole, meet halfway with my parents, of course with respect. and they are always willing to hear me out. they sure have some of their old ways.. which i think doesn't work nowadays. but, what the hell. i'll deal with this. although, there are issues we still need to discuss and be clear about, such as in the matters of love. LOL.

anyway, here's a song.... FROM THE PARENTS.. basically it's about a mother's love.. but it can apply to ... father's as well....

this sums up what your parents are feeling specially the moms about their children in a nutshell.

it is said.. that you never own your kids.. and that parents watch us grow so they can let us go. if we want a different name, they ask us what we want to be called. if we want to sail in a different direction, they just help us find the wind.

and sometimes.... some parents have shortcomings. but, let us all understand... their father's father. and that if at one point... if your experience with your parents are just plain madness... maybe, you can stop the madness at your end.

and just love your kids.. the way you want your parents to love you.

as you can see... we can't blame no one.

not even our parents. and despite all the hate and rage... let's all remember the LOVE. ;)

another one from Barbra Streisand entitled: "If I Could".

(imagine that your mom is singing you this song... or your dad... or your parents.. together... singing a duet).

If I could, I'd protect you
From the sadness in your eyes
Give you courage in a world of compromise
Yes, I would

If I could, I would teach you
All the things I've never learned
And I'd help you cross the bridges that I've burned
Yes, I would

If I could, I would try to shield
Your innocence from time
But a part of life I gave you isn't mine
I've watched you grow, so I could let you go

If I could, I would help you
Make it through the hungry years
But I know that I can never cry your tears
But I would, if I could

If I live in a time and place where you don't want to be
You don't have to walk along this road with me
My yesterday won't have to be your way

If I knew, I would try to change
The world I brought to you to
And there isn't very much that I, I could do
But I would, if I could

Oh baby, mummy wants to protect you
And help my baby through the hungry years
It's part of

And if you ever, ever need
Sad shoulder to cry on
I'm just someone to talk to
I'll be there, I'll be there

I didn't change your world
But I would, if I could

Oh darling, I love you baby

Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Day 2 - Your Crush

Crush??? Eeep!

Do celebrity crushes count? I have a couple.

There's Matt Damon who tops my list.

There's Patrick Dempsey. Robert Downey, Jr. Hugh Dancy.

Keiffer Sutherland. (I know Keiffer is old! but, what the hell! I just love him to bits!)

How about book characters?

Well, there's Mr. Darcy of Pride and Prejudice

and my high school crush Aaron from Sweet Valley

How about movie characters?

Of course, there's Dastan! The recent character i'm crushing on.

Si Drover of the movie Australia. *swoons* THE BEST!

How about.. Right Now in Real Life?

Actually, I can't think of anyone. As of the moment.

In real life, i'd have this passing fancy of you... but when I find I can't converse with you... It fades.

Having a crush in real life specially when I'm in my twenties, is different than the ones I had when I was in high school.

In high school, I'd have long standing crushes with a few guys. But, now that i'm in my twenties, I'd have a fleeting fancy. So, I can't say... that I have one right now.

Oh.. meron nga pala akong online crush. *teehee* =) *blushes*

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Day 1: Your Best Friend

This is funny.

I had to think long and hard for this post.

Because up until now, I don't have what they call the "best friend".

I always think a best friend is the one you were with since childhood. I have this "best friend" ideal. And for so long a time... ever since I was younger.. my whole search was focused on having one.


It wasn't about boys or mates, but merely about having a BEST FRIEND. and many a time, i have called some friends.. "BEST FRIEND"

but, the ones I call those.. are not people I am close to right now.

If not, we are deemed to strangers... it's as if.. we silently ask ourselves "were we really friends?"

In High School... I was more on to being with a group rather with a single "BEST FRIEND".

Siguro, i have long given up the hope about finding one.

The LESSON for me?

I was so focused on the ideals... that a slight imperfection can make me go away. A slight deviation of "what should be" would make me want to start something new with a different friend. I realized I wasn't looking for a BESTFRIEND. and that I never really understood what it really means. I was like a woman looking for Mr. Right. In my case, the PERFECT FRIEND.

Now? I don't have the "I have to have a BEST FRIEND syndrome".

I've learned through time that some people are just downright blessed to have a "soul mate" right by their side growing up. And that ever since they were young they know how to appreciate what it means to have a "best friend". And it doesn't mean my life isn't complete without that (because for awhile i thought it was everything).

and just early last year.... I began to REALLY, WHOLEHEARTEDLY appreciate all my FRIENDS. and that friendship isn't something exclusive you can share with just one person but with the rest of the world. (i know it sounds crazy, i thought it was like that before... )


I realized ... I can never appreciate my FRIENDS around me... if I don't know how to be a BEST FRIEND to MYSELF.

Yeah, i don't have a specific "best friend", like in those movies.... but, I have ME. my other self. the one who knows everything. the one who braves to confront the darkest parts of me. the one who loves. the one who knows whether im happy or sad.

and what's the good news?

I'm not exclusive.

My friendship extends to everybody around me. And that... in everything... I'll be my BEST.

*blows kisses*

P.S. my heart is still warmed whenever i see childhood best friends walking past me.



Thursday, June 24, 2010

Talk about DAYS!

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

I saw the list back at tumblr. Yeah. I got one. And sometimes it's a great way to post random stuffs in one day.... and some one-liners with just one click!

So.. well.. if you have the time you can check it out: ANGELBLUSH'S TUMBLR PAGE

Anyway... even if i saw the list over @ TUMBLR... i will be doing it HERE. Since, ive been slow on updates.. and it gives me some things to talk about.. and they all have interesting topics..

So.... I will be posting away soon!

HOW ARE YOU??? Will be doing my rounds later!! Ta-ta

P.S. you can do this one if you want too.

P.P.S. *waves hi* to PM for mentioning me over at her blog. Hehe.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

it's raining

Today... I GRIEVE...

Last week.. i received a message that one of our close family friend passed away.

It's been a year or so since I last saw Tay Ronnel.

He was one of the most influential person I've met in my life. Very articulate and he has this overflowing generous heart. Although, he may seem a bit "strict" and intimidating.. I find him that most of the time... but he keeps you at ease with his humor. That's the best thing about him.

He'd often question me about my choices, and would tell me he admires me for being me. Although, i have made a choice recently that MAY lead to him telling me.. "guess you are not as obedient as you may seem to be." I never heard that from him. Instead, he respected my choice.

He was a great father... a testament to that is his two sons, Kyle and Kevin. And was an influential leader of the lot. Thanks for sharing the walk with us Tay Ronnel. You have been one of my angels on earth.

And just today... I received a message... Joseph Manasseh passed away. :( He was, oh so young. just 2 nights ago I received a message of him being in ICU there in Manila. :( :( :(

The rain always pours to people who deserves the sun the most...

to his family who have been every bit of my family as well (although we had a bit of a ... lie low moment...) my loving thoughts are with you all....

i really don't know what to say in moments like these... specially, to you my dearest Chaya. But, i just want to let you feel that in times like these.. we are here for you.

all my love...

(is lighting a candle... and an incense.. for their transition... )

Saturday, June 05, 2010

There are no Mistakes

i suddenly remembered a song....

it's by Barbra Streisand...

If you think you took the wrong turn... if you made any mistakes... if you regret something.. or maybe you are thinking about the past that went bad..

or maybe life wasn't that easy....

this song... this song is for you....

i hope you take time to listen to it...

and its a good song to follow up on my previous post with those "vulnerable" side of the heroes...

Lessons to Be Learned - Barbra Streisand

They say there's a universal plan
For every woman, for every man
I do believe there's a higher power
But in our darkest hour it's hard to understand
So we start to question, start to doubt
We lose faith in what life's all about

Why did the right road take the wrong turn
Why did our heart break, why'd we get burned
Just like the seasons there are reasons for the path we take
There are no mistakes
Just lessons to be learned

Don't give up, keep on looking deep inside
Let your heartbeat be your guide
Cause there's a gift, for those who keep believing
You'll find what you've been needing is right before your eyes
You'll hold the answer in your hands
Then you'll know, you'll finally understand

Why did the right road take a wrong turn
Why did our heart break, why'd we get burned
Just like the seasons there are reasons for the path we take
There are no mistakes
Just lessons to be learned

No matter how many times you stumble or fall
The greatest lesson is loving yourself through it all

Why did the right road take a wrong turn
Why did our heart break, why'd we get burned
Just like the seasons, there are reasons for the path we take
There are no mistakes
Just lessons
Lessons to be learned

Saturday, May 08, 2010

Absolute Vulnerability

Even heroes have "vulnerable moments".

Despite the superpowers and psychic abilities they have... they are human too.

Adrian Tranquili a sculptor shows us the scarcely seen, vulnerable side of our Super Heroes.

Although the outside battles are equally riveting... it is the inner battle that matters most. In Spiderman 3: "The Battle Lies Within".

Everyone can relate to them because it is not just the super heroes who goes through this.

And according to Socrates of the movie "Peaceful Warrior" based on the best selling book The Way of A Peaceful Warrior:

A warrior is not about perfection or victory or invulnerability. He's about ABSOLUTE VULNERABILITY.

And in those moments.... we allow ourselves to be human.....

So... if you are going through something..... always mind the battles within.... because they are the ones that matters most. As within, so without. Life is a mirror. It reflects back your innermost thoughts, feelings and desires.

and always remember folks, a warrior is about ABSOLUTE VULNERABILITY.. and we all have those moments.

Image Source from: Diesel Fragrance

Thursday, April 15, 2010

Something Political

I don't know anything about politics, I don't know how it works. I don't know the truth from the lies, because I was never there, wasn't in politics and never done any. I always shy away from any conversation related to that unless an election is drawing near.

The only time I get hyped up talking about politics is when people talk about Mayor Duterte. or the Duterte's for that matter.

So, yeah the election is drawing near...

And, I'm surprised when I ask most people I know, they are still at the twilight zone of who their President would be. Or they'd give me: Noynoy, there's a Gibo, there's Gordon, other people would smirk about Villar (but the jingle is really something that could make your eyes roll), there's also a taxi driver who would vote for Erap.

No one in the political world is ever clean. Ever. In politics, you roll up your sleeves to clean up the mess and you get your hands dirty. Others are smart, they make other people do it. They let someone like Jack Bauer to clean up the mess. Ok, that sounds 24-ish na. My point is, everyone in the political world is somewhat marred. If you wanna work with the system, you have to mesh yourself with it... and you uncover a lot of things you'd rather not encounter. But, it's a matter of working yourself in it.... and well yeah, ending up acting: "for the good of the people". I knew of a few good people who ran for the office but ended up quitting because they can't stand the lies. But, it's all a matter of balance. There are well-meaning people in the government, there are those whose principles are firm, and who still keeps their word. And you would see those people bringing about results.

As I've said once at a friendster blogpost that Truth and Politics cannot mix. So, no one would ever know what's the truth or the real deal anyway. Because, if you search for the truth you'd come up with a web of lies. What they do out there is, they lie to the people and if they lie long enough they'd end up believing those lies and it ends up becoming the truth. So, who knows?

I, like everyone else is on a limbo about my President.

I once opted for Noynoy because his running for President wasn't something he planned anyway. There wasn't any strategy involved. It wasn't strategy when President Cory Aquino died. So, i found it was a bit divine. People asked him to run after the late President Cory Aquino died, and it was amazing how Mar Roxas put on hold his eye as being President and settled for Vice President. Although, i'm sure they have things on their sleeves na because they are in it already.

Then, I later found out Noynoy and Gibo were cousins and I got hold of some "80's Conspiracy Theories involving Marcos and the Aquino's".

Then, I saw Gordon... and even wanted him to win until I talked to some political analysts who told me Gordon wasn't "winnable". They say: "If we vote for Gordon, chances are Villar might win... blabber this and blabber that.." and they all opted for Noynoy as the lesser evil.

and there's Nicanor Perlas who is not so publicized but well worth considering. I just browsed his website. He is divorced but so, what the hell? (You'd know below, why those things wouldn't matter.)

I for one, don't want Villar to win. I don't want to add any more fuel to fire because it's already big and everyone knows what a big fat liar dot dot dot dot.....

And then, I said to myself maybe I should wait for whomever Mayor Rodrigo Duterte will endorse.

A few nights before Duterte announced his President, I dreamt he was supporting: Noynoy. And, I was amazed just this week when I learned he was indeed supporting Noynoy.

But, until now... I still don't have a President.

Anyway, here's my list:

Vice President:


Risa Hontiveros (Ana Theresia Baraquel)
BongBong Marcos
Bong Revilla
Pia Cayetano
Ralph Recto
Martin Bautista
Gwen Pimentel

(i really haven't researched the Senators... and there's sooo much information. *sigh*)

Davao City:

Mayor: Inday Sara Duterte
Vice Mayor: Rodrigo Duterte

I'm supporting the following councilors, though I can't vote kasi I'm on a different district:
Congresswoman: Mabel Sunga Acosta
1st District Councilor: Lester Avila / Billy Parilla

I'm supporting Kuya LL (Lester Avila), since he was my schoolmate and we have common family friends and of course knew him personally. And I can personally vouch for him. His advocacy is "Youth for Environment". And will be continuing some great projects for the Environment. :)

2nd District: Congresswoman: Mylene Garcia

and im on a limbo sa councilors.

Anyway... I found something online (I actually encountered this questionnaire in a seminar) and I think most of you will recognize this:


Candidate A was associated with witchdoctors and often consulted astrologists. He had two mistresses. His wife was a Lesbian. He smoked a lot. He drank eight to ten martinis a day.

Candidate B never managed to hold down a job because of his arrogance. He slept the whole morning. He used opium at school, and was always considered a bad student. He drank a glass of brandy every morning.

Candidate C was decorated a hero. A vegetarian, he did not smoke. His discipline was exemplary. He occasionally drank a beer. He stayed with the same woman during his moments of glory and defeat.

And what was the answer?

A] Franklin Delano Roosevelt.

B] Winston Churchill.

C] Adolf Hitler.


All the best, PHILIPPINES.... in selecting our President.

Friday, March 19, 2010

descending into hell


if you are having a good day... stay away from this.

tear stained cheeks and blood shot eyes. for no apparent reason at all. (it's been like this during random nights). her heart is breaking.... and she doesn't know why. she's confused.

confused. confused. confused.

confused, is what she is. she even wanted to beat her head or bang it against the wall for feeling like this. but, her other self... just allowed her. just allowed her to pour all those pain out in one brief moment. she couldn't believe the rush of emotion pushing through her.

she'd stop herself at the comfort room. at the shower or even when she's about to lie down.

the recent scene was the pink tiled comfort room. she checked her blackjack for the time. it took her 9 minutes. 3 minutes to cry and 6 minutes in between to calm herself and dry her eyes.

she sobbed. she can't bawl, cause she might attract attention.

it's like there's this dull ache in her chest. and while crying, she found herself asking: "Why? Why? Why do I feel like this?"

she's racking her brain and feeling her heart whether this was about the recent loss she had. and now she feels her brain was deliberately trying to confuse itself.

is this a chip on her shoulder? but, it's crazy because he is the last thing on her mind. and she's not even thinking about him anymore. she couldn't even imagine him in the future.

is it a mask? is she not over the situation yet? it's been a month of Sundays. she's not hearing his name. and the gods were all in her favor and besides she does not want to beat a dead horse.

or is it because she's losing her way? or she's trying to find it? what? what is her heart telling her?

or is she starting to feel a growing concern for someone? and all these familiar feelings are starting to surface.

or maybe she's just growing? like some spiritual detox where all the dark areas of herself gets sucked up to the surface in order to be released? a bit like colonics minus the literal shit. what is it?

it's like the time of her life where she's feeling... this journey is not fun. its too sad, too frightening, too heavy, too lonely, too hopeless.

when the gods gave the map for this journey, part of that journey is to go through the dark night of the soul.

is this her dark night of the soul, the winter of her discontent ? Should it be like what Mother Teresa in one of her famous quotes said: "I have found the paradox, that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love."?

that you just keep bleeding (and yes, remember that song). God, that sure sounds so EMO. *beats herself for talking like this. this is not her. everyone who knows her.. would be shocked* nothing short of romantic. its EMO and its unhealthy if she drones on and on about being EMO.

she's about fairy tales and happy endings. not crossroads and lonely highways. she's about the light and not the shadow. she's the angel and not the devil's advocate.

but then, maybe she's more of like Alanis' song..

"im a bitch, im a lover, im a child, im a mother, im a sinner, im a saint, i do not feel ashamed. im your hell, im your dream, im nothing in between."


folks, bear with me. my posts are dark and dreary. not light and heavenly.

im acknowledging my ego... and letting it go,
its like im being crucified or dead and buried
its like being lost in a labyrinth.
a little bit like descending into hell.
and doing battle with dragons...

that's poetry....

in modern times... they stripped it off poetry and called it


but... i'd just remember what the Christ said:

"this too shall pass"


when it's done...

i'd be happy to say:

"the past is over. it can touch me not."

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Have you Ever?

have you ever had those moments when you want to lash out at someone you love but you know very well enough that its not gonna hurt the person because it is you writhing in pain?

and that the anger for that one person is like you drinking the poison expecting the other person to suffer but it ends up burning you?

have you ever wanted to say so many things to someone, because that someone never allowed you to say your own piece? Mentally, you say those would-have-been nice movie lines because you knew for sure that was how you felt and that you needed that person who caused it to hear that.

have you ever felt the frustration to hate someone you love but you know very well it is all a mind game because deep down inside you were happy and that at one moment in time... you were sure... you LOVED?

have you ever felt wanting to play the victim but deep down inside you knew for sure that you are a victim no more?

and because of that... you immerse yourself with all those Korean melodrama on TV and hide your pain....

have you ever wished that one day you would meet someone who is as handsome and charming as Yi Jeoung, with the surprising persistent sweetness with a rough edge of Jun Pyo, the courage of Woo Bin, and the loyal devotion and utmost care of Ji Hoo?

this is just my shadow saying its piece... i am beyond this... but i am letting shadow take over for just one moment. for just one moment.


just got back from a summit in Baguio. what a nice experience! ;)

oh and i got PM's prize!! wahoo. Thanks again!

Monday, March 01, 2010


First off, I just won a cute polymer clay trinket from Prinsesa Musang's blog. It was her anniversary and she was giving away prizes. :) My comeback was welcomed by this pleasant surprise - winning the trinket. Thanks PM! Is grateful. :)


so many things have been happening lately....
and im sure most people would find them not pleasant...

there were earthquakes in various places in the world, the most recent was Chile's 8.8..

and the baby tsunami waves.....

the recent power shortage here in the South.....

the extreme hot weather brought out by EL Nino...

and among others...

mhmmm....... well, lets just all generate loving energies to Nature and Universe.....


Saturday, February 20, 2010

Surf, Sand, Fire and Party

Photo: (Taken at Botona Beach Resort, it's the whole stretch of Dahican Beach in Mati. Kanakbai Beach Resort is on the other side).

Hi guys!

This year, I had one of the best birthday (every year.. it's always BEST for me!). I was out of town, with my childhood friends whom I considered as real brothers and sisters. We went out for Maranatha's debut.

From L-R: Darlene, Ate Jill, Me, Cris, Paolo H., and Walter at Kanakbai Beach Resort, Dahican (Mati)

We took off early in the morning, and my sister and I got around to helping the "decorators" of the venue who happened to be my childhood friends. Everyone (including us) was a bit groogy, because we all slept late or didn't sleep at all the night before since we all have to do last minute stuffs. (I was the one in charge for our surprise video presentation).

It was all crazy, really... we finished late with the decoration because we thought there were locals who would help us with the decoration, but no help came and if there was ever one... they came in late na rin. And we went to the party with no make up at all because there was only one bathroom and the party was about to start. The venue and the accommodation of the guests is like a 5-8 minutes ride.

Photo: (us with the debutante... like a fairy doll).

Anyway, despite all that.... it was arguably FUN! The debutante was the star of the night... unlike the usual (princessy debut which I had), it was fairly-like and of course hawaiian. She was the only one who was allowed to wear white. One thing I enjoyed was the "fire dance" and the hawaiian dance by the debutante and her mother at the last part. :)

that was February 13.... and it was also my birthday...

I told everyone to forget my birthday and give the day to Maranatha. And everyone was pretty accommodating. But, when the party ended and the debutante was entertaining the rest of her guests at Botona where we were all housed, everyone sang a "happy birthday" to me. *how sweet of them*

That night, was one of the best nights because I saw the diamond glittered star-filled sky. It was like a blanket of stars and I was barefoot with the sound of the waves and the wind howling at the background and the air was it's usual refreshing self. *swoons* Could this get any better? Too bad, I don't have pictures of the star-filled blanket of a sky.... it will forever be in my mind though. -_- *i have simple delights! just gimme nature.. and id be beaming with joy*

That night, we were good girls and boys... all we had was cake and coke. Bread breaking, eh? The modern way. Haha. :)

We just talked underneath the sky and with the sound of the waves lulling us to sleep. We slept around 3 in the morning like sardines because of the limited rooms.
There was like 13 of us in the room. It was crazy. :)

Photo: Don't mind the eyebags, please... -_-

Some of us woke up around 5-6am to scout for the surfer dudes to give us surfing lessons. And came the best "Valentine's everrrrrr". We talked to the guys from "Amihan sa Dahican". They were a nice lot. Too bad, I wasn't able to try the surfing.. I had the tide. Get my drift, please. The beach was bare save, for us. Perfect for beginners to surf. :)

I fell in love watching them surf. It made me want to go back to Dahican.

By the way, they have an upcoming Skim Competition this April. You can search them on Facebook and add them: Amihan Sa Dahican, for more information regarding their competition. You can also donate something for the said competition. :)

It was a good memory... and yes... I can't wait to go back to Dahican... I discovered a lovely place 3 hours away from Davao... =)

Surfing photos on my other post na lang.... :)

I know this is late... but how was your Valentine's? Or Chinese New Year? :)