Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Day 2 - Your Crush

Crush??? Eeep!

Do celebrity crushes count? I have a couple.

There's Matt Damon who tops my list.

There's Patrick Dempsey. Robert Downey, Jr. Hugh Dancy.

Keiffer Sutherland. (I know Keiffer is old! but, what the hell! I just love him to bits!)

How about book characters?

Well, there's Mr. Darcy of Pride and Prejudice

and my high school crush Aaron from Sweet Valley

How about movie characters?

Of course, there's Dastan! The recent character i'm crushing on.

Si Drover of the movie Australia. *swoons* THE BEST!

How about.. Right Now in Real Life?

Actually, I can't think of anyone. As of the moment.

In real life, i'd have this passing fancy of you... but when I find I can't converse with you... It fades.

Having a crush in real life specially when I'm in my twenties, is different than the ones I had when I was in high school.

In high school, I'd have long standing crushes with a few guys. But, now that i'm in my twenties, I'd have a fleeting fancy. So, I can't say... that I have one right now.

Oh.. meron nga pala akong online crush. *teehee* =) *blushes*

Saturday, June 26, 2010

Day 1: Your Best Friend

This is funny.

I had to think long and hard for this post.

Because up until now, I don't have what they call the "best friend".

I always think a best friend is the one you were with since childhood. I have this "best friend" ideal. And for so long a time... ever since I was younger.. my whole search was focused on having one.


It wasn't about boys or mates, but merely about having a BEST FRIEND. and many a time, i have called some friends.. "BEST FRIEND"

but, the ones I call those.. are not people I am close to right now.

If not, we are deemed to strangers... it's as if.. we silently ask ourselves "were we really friends?"

In High School... I was more on to being with a group rather with a single "BEST FRIEND".

Siguro, i have long given up the hope about finding one.

The LESSON for me?

I was so focused on the ideals... that a slight imperfection can make me go away. A slight deviation of "what should be" would make me want to start something new with a different friend. I realized I wasn't looking for a BESTFRIEND. and that I never really understood what it really means. I was like a woman looking for Mr. Right. In my case, the PERFECT FRIEND.

Now? I don't have the "I have to have a BEST FRIEND syndrome".

I've learned through time that some people are just downright blessed to have a "soul mate" right by their side growing up. And that ever since they were young they know how to appreciate what it means to have a "best friend". And it doesn't mean my life isn't complete without that (because for awhile i thought it was everything).

and just early last year.... I began to REALLY, WHOLEHEARTEDLY appreciate all my FRIENDS. and that friendship isn't something exclusive you can share with just one person but with the rest of the world. (i know it sounds crazy, i thought it was like that before... )


I realized ... I can never appreciate my FRIENDS around me... if I don't know how to be a BEST FRIEND to MYSELF.

Yeah, i don't have a specific "best friend", like in those movies.... but, I have ME. my other self. the one who knows everything. the one who braves to confront the darkest parts of me. the one who loves. the one who knows whether im happy or sad.

and what's the good news?

I'm not exclusive.

My friendship extends to everybody around me. And that... in everything... I'll be my BEST.

*blows kisses*

P.S. my heart is still warmed whenever i see childhood best friends walking past me.



Thursday, June 24, 2010

Talk about DAYS!

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger
Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

I saw the list back at tumblr. Yeah. I got one. And sometimes it's a great way to post random stuffs in one day.... and some one-liners with just one click!

So.. well.. if you have the time you can check it out: ANGELBLUSH'S TUMBLR PAGE

Anyway... even if i saw the list over @ TUMBLR... i will be doing it HERE. Since, ive been slow on updates.. and it gives me some things to talk about.. and they all have interesting topics..

So.... I will be posting away soon!

HOW ARE YOU??? Will be doing my rounds later!! Ta-ta

P.S. you can do this one if you want too.

P.P.S. *waves hi* to PM for mentioning me over at her blog. Hehe.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

it's raining

Today... I GRIEVE...

Last week.. i received a message that one of our close family friend passed away.

It's been a year or so since I last saw Tay Ronnel.

He was one of the most influential person I've met in my life. Very articulate and he has this overflowing generous heart. Although, he may seem a bit "strict" and intimidating.. I find him that most of the time... but he keeps you at ease with his humor. That's the best thing about him.

He'd often question me about my choices, and would tell me he admires me for being me. Although, i have made a choice recently that MAY lead to him telling me.. "guess you are not as obedient as you may seem to be." I never heard that from him. Instead, he respected my choice.

He was a great father... a testament to that is his two sons, Kyle and Kevin. And was an influential leader of the lot. Thanks for sharing the walk with us Tay Ronnel. You have been one of my angels on earth.

And just today... I received a message... Joseph Manasseh passed away. :( He was, oh so young. just 2 nights ago I received a message of him being in ICU there in Manila. :( :( :(

The rain always pours to people who deserves the sun the most...

to his family who have been every bit of my family as well (although we had a bit of a ... lie low moment...) my loving thoughts are with you all....

i really don't know what to say in moments like these... specially, to you my dearest Chaya. But, i just want to let you feel that in times like these.. we are here for you.

all my love...

(is lighting a candle... and an incense.. for their transition... )

Saturday, June 05, 2010

There are no Mistakes

i suddenly remembered a song....

it's by Barbra Streisand...

If you think you took the wrong turn... if you made any mistakes... if you regret something.. or maybe you are thinking about the past that went bad..

or maybe life wasn't that easy....

this song... this song is for you....

i hope you take time to listen to it...

and its a good song to follow up on my previous post with those "vulnerable" side of the heroes...

Lessons to Be Learned - Barbra Streisand

They say there's a universal plan
For every woman, for every man
I do believe there's a higher power
But in our darkest hour it's hard to understand
So we start to question, start to doubt
We lose faith in what life's all about

Why did the right road take the wrong turn
Why did our heart break, why'd we get burned
Just like the seasons there are reasons for the path we take
There are no mistakes
Just lessons to be learned

Don't give up, keep on looking deep inside
Let your heartbeat be your guide
Cause there's a gift, for those who keep believing
You'll find what you've been needing is right before your eyes
You'll hold the answer in your hands
Then you'll know, you'll finally understand

Why did the right road take a wrong turn
Why did our heart break, why'd we get burned
Just like the seasons there are reasons for the path we take
There are no mistakes
Just lessons to be learned

No matter how many times you stumble or fall
The greatest lesson is loving yourself through it all

Why did the right road take a wrong turn
Why did our heart break, why'd we get burned
Just like the seasons, there are reasons for the path we take
There are no mistakes
Just lessons
Lessons to be learned