Monday, October 23, 2006

Be still....

"Be still and know that I am GOD."

If there is an accident or something happened that is so unexpected, the quote above applies to such situations.

Yes, do not panic... but remember and be still and know that God is around(IN YOU).

The meaning goes deeper than just being "still". You see, when a person is calm and at peace even when in a very grave situation... everything works out well. You act from the spirit, without your mind telling you the fact, but your spirit telling you the TRUTH.

Facts(accidents,troubles,bad sitch,heartaches,) change, but the TRUTH does not.

What is the TRUTH ? The truth is - "There is perfection in EVERYTHING". But you must strive to see this. YOu cannot see the TRUTH if you are in a state of panic or disillusionment.

But always FEEL your Feelings. You laugh when you need too, you cry when you feel the urge to. Do not suppress it. But, when all the emotion is done (laughing/crying) be still and know that GOD is GOD.

In other words, in the midst of chaos and the tragedies, SEE the GLORY of THE PROCESS. Even as you die with a stab behind your back or even when you are inside a burning house. Or just watching it.

This might seem impossible to do, but when you arrive in such situations and you move into such "consciousness", you can do it.

In a moment of a great tragedy, the challenge is to quiet the mind and move deep within the soul.

But you dont have to be STILL, if you choose not too. You always have the choice in how you wish to experience the MOMENT.

Is it by being STILL and being AT PEACE? or is it by panicking and crying for the rest of the whole experience?

Why am I sharing this to you?

Because, me and my family experienced it.

Two nights before we(me, mom and dad)are supposed to leave for Hong Kong, my Dad's stroke recurred.

(Doctors said, that strokes recur 3-5 years and is usually worst than the first one. But amazingly my dad's stroke was very mild and it was after 11 years not 3-5.)

It was probably 10:30 in the evening, and my mom was talking to dad, and they turned the lights on (in the hotel room). And that night i was really having a hard time, to have a good night's sleep. I keep waking up, go to the bathroom, then shift and turn in the bed.

Mom: Are you ok?
Dad: I'm fine (slurring)
Mom: Something is wrong with you, do you want to go to the doctor?
Dad: No, I'm fine (you can barely make the words out cause his speech slurred)

Then my dad stood up and was woobly, then sat down beside the bed.

Mom: Are you sure? You can't even stand up well.
Dad: I'm fine.
Mom: Is your head aching? Are you ok?
Dad: Yes, im ok.

Dad tried to stand up again but still woobly.

Mom: See? We need to go to the doctor.
Dad: I'm ok.
Mom: Can you move your feet?

Dad demonstrated it, and he can.

Dad: It's just weak, but i can move it.
Mom: Ok, let's go to the doctor.

My dad finally agreed. But before that, we made him drink 5 pairs of RGGL (my dad's herbal food supplement). We were sent to San Juan De Dios Hospital. But we did it really calmly.

What's going inside me that time?

Watching my dad, at first I can't believe it. Am i dreaming? Is this true? Everything was fine during the day. Dad and Mom was even dancing together and we keep on laughing the whole day.

But, I was just calm.. and I KNOW that everything was JUST FINE. Me and my mom exchanged reassuring looks and I know that everything was FINE.

And, to imagine the incident happened... and we were not even in DAVAO, out from the comfort zone(where you know everyone), but into a place where you hardly know anyone.

I might've panicked just thinking about the FACTS. BUt you see... there is the calming TRUTH within ME.. that EVERYTHING IS PERFECTLY FINE.

We were ushered (not rushed) inside the ER. When I was allowed inside, i assisted my dad. Me and my mom was beside my dad the whole time, and every once in awhile.. we would laugh at some things we would talk about.

My mom told my dad, that this was just a RESULT of my dad's past actions. You see, for two months my dad was in a lot of stress. Lack of sleep, wrong diet (eating outside*in restaurants* most of the time with business associates), always tired, driving for hours in long distance travels. And all them have summed up and resulted into This.

But, my mom told dad that she was not blaming him. For no one is to be blamed. And all we have to do... is be calm and consider it as a wake up call to stop BEING IN A LOT OF STRESS and back to the RAW FOOD DIET.

Once in awhile i would wipe away little tears that would stream down. I was not in the state of hopelesness. I wasn't crying... the agonizing way. I was crying with PEACE in my heart, and then smile again feeling so reassured that everything is fine.

We stayed in the ER for hours(10:50pm-10am). They transferred us to the ICU by 10am. My dad needs to stay there for observation. My dad was perfectly fine... he can move his body. (unlike before he was half body paralyzed). My dad stayed in ICU for two days, then was transferred to a private room and stayed there for 2 days. Then after that, they went back to Davao.

All of this happened recently. My dad as of the moment, is driving. He insists that he should. No more oily food for him, more food supplements/vitamins. Massive VITAMIN C. We learned from a book given to us by our nutritionist... and my mentor in IRIDOLOGY.. that we ALL need VITAMIN C.

I always remember this, in times of tragedy - "Fear not for I am with you."

That is what poetry has to say, for a person in a tragedy.

"In your darkest hour, I will be your light. In your blackest moment, I am your consolation. In your most difficult and trying time, I will be your strength. Therefore, Have FAITH, for I am your shepherd you shall not want.

I will cause you to lie down in green pastures; I will lead you beside still waters. I will restore your soul, and lead you in the paths of righteousness for MY Name's sake.

And yea, though you walk through the valley of the Shadow of Death, you will fear NO evil; for I am with you.My rod and my staff will comfort you. I am preparing a table before you in the presence of your enemies: I anoint your head with oil; Your cup runneth over.

Surely goodness and mercy shall follow you all the days of your life: and You will dwell in MY house-and in MY HEART forever." - GOD


tina said...

hi tina! i hope your dad's okay now. things happen for a reason and yes, God will take care of everything for us... we should just learn how to surrender it all to Him.
sasha | 10.23.06 - 8:57 am |

yes yes All is well. My dad will be driving us downtown sometime later. but not too long. hehe. But at least. Thanks and take care.
tina | 10.23.06 - 9:40 pm |

Pam said...

hope he's fine...

anyway, bakit yung school ninyo ni avy?hehehe...worse than my sister's school?

pam | 10.24.06 - 5:03 am |

rally na...hehehehehe...ganon? ay mali..hehehe..pasabugin na lang yung school..joke..hehehe..

im just really making this fast coz my net's ****** up..^_^

be back soon.hehe..
pam | 10.25.06 - 1:20 am |

Ralpht said...

sana ok na dad mo
ralphT | Homepage | 10.25.06 - 3:21 am |