Another Affair

I've noticed the trending in Filipino movies about infidelity, lately.

At first came in, No Other Woman. And though, I hate to say it, I watched this with my Tita who really wants to watch it with me. You see, she's from a province and it was a rare request, and so I just tagged along. It happened. But, it had a good ending. I guess, I felt it was kinda okay.

Then came..... A Secret Afair. Okaaaaaay. Then... The Mistress.......

What are they teaching kids now?

Movies reflect our culture. Seems like our culture when it comes to commitment....  is slowly going down the drain.

I know probably its all about money..... since I heard: "No Other Woman" earned a lot and is prolly one of the highest grossing films from last year.... (and yeah, I was responsible for 3 seats that time).

But, but, but, oh welll....... just airing this out. I know.. to each his own... and its quiet sad to see, it's slowly probably becoming a "norm".  But, is normal.... really healthy?

And we all know.... that when it hits mainstream... and everybody is doing it..... well, who cares?

Ok, wait till I have myself an affair. And I'll say what's on the other end. But, I clearly know how it feels like being on the receiving end. And it sucks.

Either way, the people on the other end.... will either do the same thing out of revenge, like the one in "The Mistress".... or.... the person will go through his journey of aches and pains... of never wanting to commit na. But, that's life right? It can't all be rosy and rainbows.....

Anyway, this will give more jobs and money  to psychologists, counselors, marriage advisor.... and booze , motels, hotels, make-ups, clothes, plastic surgeries, weight loss products...  etc.

Note: These are just my ideas, opinions and reflections. Nothing against people into secret affairs... because once again.... "to each his own". I'm just concerned, how this will be in the future.

Ikepono Seminar in Manila

Ike Pono is coming to Manila on October 19,20,21 & 26,27,28 (6Days -2 weekends) 

Venue at the 3rd Flr Red Cross Rizal Chapter, Shaw Blvd., Pasig City 

For more details text or call 0915-2037480 (globe).

Or just message me here, so I can give your number/details to the organizers in Manila.

I just attended Ikepono here in Davao... (we are on our second weekend), first day and you feel that is already worth what you paid!

Absolutely Lovely Workshop! :)

Fabulous 2011

So long 2010... and Hello 2011!

2010 was a great year for me!

And even up to the last day... 2010 gave me one eye-opening experience... and I learned something about myself. That with everything I have gone through, I still do get scared and I have a lot of doubts in my mind - STILL. I also realized the mind is powerful but not as majestic as the heart. That the mind still relies on what you feel. And that what you feel does the rest of the job. What a work it is... to really get out of my mind and come to my senses..... what a greater work to get out of my box..... Arrrgghhh... that it's easier to post a status message over at Facebook than actually doing it. But, hey... just because I posted it.. doesn't mean I am already there.. I posted it because I needed the reminder. That was my year-end drama... now I have one last chance na lang daw. Booohooo. Pass this Tina... transform transform...


And I am even looking forward for a fabulous 2011.


(I have always planned to post a 2010 checklist but I guess I will have to post it later).

Meanwhile for my blog ritual... Imma post what I shall be having

This year.... is going to be a fabulous one for me!

I am choosing to do wonderful, unexpected things.
I choose to be more kinder...
I choose to be progressive and not procrastinate (Go Crown Ambassador!)
I choose to be a better woman inside and out...
I choose to stop running away (i almost attempted that just recently. ego still soooo strong.)
and with that....
I choose to tame and befriend my ego...

I choose to face all fears with confidence.. (GO TINA!!!)
I choose to see the beauty of the sunset..
I choose to have a "PERFECT DAY" once a month. =)
I choose to think out-of-the-box (Think RANCHO!!!)

I choose to focus on what I want and not by thinking what others might say...
I choose to surprise people - in a good, fun way. :)
I choose to be more cheerful and more charitable.... specially to the people I have judgments with.

I choose to be more adventurous (Gooooo extreme sports! HAHA!)
I choose to be fit slim and healthy as I can be for me and my family! (Sign up na TINA!)
I choose to lose the excess weight that does not serve me for the past couple of months! :)
I choose to be open to changes...
I choose to be more relaxed and beautiful...

I choose to go to even more places in the world I have never been before..
I choose to be more patient to people I do not like..
I choose to be the best girlfriend ever! *hearts&flowers*
I choose to have no obstacles... only challenges and opportunities to learn. :)

I choose to focus on more wonderful things about every person I meet.... =)
I choose to simply savor love and life... =)
I choose to stay awake more...
I choose to be more outgoing and free spirited...

I choose to change the world in my own little way...
I choose to not be weary in doing good...
I choose to lovingly serve everyone I meet... (just stay awake Tina!)


HAPPY FABULOUS NEW YEAR TO ALL OF YOU, my dear Friends.... =)



Cheers for a wonderful 2011!



Let's keep our vision and make this world a better place!

Happy Holidays!!

Merry Christmas!! (I know it's kinda late. And saying Happy New Year would be a bit too early). So... Happy Holidays na lang!!

WARNING: This might be a long post to make up for the weeks I haven't posted.


I know everyone is super busy with all the parties and get-together's, reunions.... because I sure was! But, I can't talk about how swamped my schedule was because that would be sooo boring. Instead let me bask about those sweet precious moments with people that matter......


It started at Cebu (Plantation Bay/Shangri-La)-Bohol with our DXN Family, the first week of December. Although I had to encounter the "Joker's of our life". I know Batman has only one Joker... and a Deck of cards only has 2. But, our family's got 4 Joker's in our life left. But the Joker's are on a different story. I had fun communing with the DXN Family at the trip. Reconnected with friends from around Pinas. Those travel seminar incentives we have are like some sort of leader's gathering/reunion. Huge. with 325 participants and was even recognized by the Mayor (government) of Cebu. :)



Then there's the get together of my HS Buds Matet and Mona. Matet is a Medical Student and they designed this "Adopt A Child For Christmas" Party.. and so we joined in on the fun. And went to the pool afterwards.

Then another dose of DXN Davao Family Pool Party on the 18th. Super Super Fun!

And then on the 21st... the bonding with the Firstborns. Which was an overnight affair. We spent most of our time on Cris's car. Talking... while the rest of the guys did their thing. Hehe. It was fun.. oooh and what a lovely moon it was!

23rd.... wedding bells were ringing. As one of the "Firstborns" got married. Awwwww. Who is next??? :)

Of course on the 24th-25th... was our the time for the biological family. They visited our home on the 24th and there were constant friends who made their annual visit. And our traditional "exchange gift". Yayyyy! Oohh the faces of the kids with their gifts was priceless.

And yesterday(26th)... we went out-of-town to visit my mom's Aunt who was the one who assisted my mom in finishing her studies when our grand parent's separated.

So... yeah... I saw most of my friends this December except my College Buds. :( But, I'm sure one of these days we will all catch up! :)

By the way.. I'd like to extend my deepest gratitude to Ms. N. for the package she sent me! Yes, she sent one of my wishlist for PM's "All I want for Christmas". :)



It's the 2011 Power Planner (Belle De Jour) over there. *points points*

And yes... it was a fun Christmas... since I finally got the set of Harry Potter series that was my High School fancy!! Grabe. Talk about delayed gratification. And mom put me to sooo much drama that time just to surprise me, I cried because I almost thought I'm not having it this year...

See ? You always get what you want... sometimes it is just not NOW. :P

broken promises

Today, marks one of the hardest choices to make in my life. I think if I was Venus Raj, answering the "major major" question. (feeling ko Ms. Universe eh ano?) This one would be my answer. Although, I'd buckle up with the answer because I was never the smart "talker", I stutter when my emotions are involved. I swear, if I don't do something about this, I will go join the Toast Masters.

I can't really explain everything that happened. Some things will remain private. Some things will remain in my "journal" and the rest might as well be left unwritten. All I can say, that everything was odd.

So many things were left unsaid for my emotions got the better of me. But, I guess that doesn't matter now. All I know, it was good while it lasted and everything was just perfect even though the "end" was abrupt and horrible.

I kind of hated myself for making promises I couldn't keep. I wanted to keep it, but I'm too scared to take it. Yes, my dear angels, I'm not ready for love it seems. All along, I thought I was, but I was uninitiated. I lack the emotional skills to hold on to the magic when the storm came.

I can't tell myself that it wasn't real for me. For, I would just be lying to myself. But, it was also hard to tell, because there were lies involved at the beginning. The facts may have been all a lie, but there was a moment, that tiny spark, that glimmer, that love visited. And that I will cherish. It will be hard to forget the songs. It's filled with bittersweet memories and broken promises.

I felt the sadness, and I was gullible enough that the good intentions I have, backfired. I got scared with the domino effect. Fear got ahead of me. And so, I had to step out from the "fantasy" we made.

It was grim and excruciating. There's a certain hardness that developed in my soul. And I hope the tears will take them away. Tears for the humiliating failure I made.

I don't even know why I felt the need to post this. Maybe, I just want to commemorate this day, and also the past three days, for this will mark another chapter of my life.

To some this can be a lesson, and for awhile I thought it was just that. But, going deeper, this was a soulful experience, one that I have probably asked, and I couldn't say I came out victorious.

But, I asked for this. I live a sheltered life. I live with my books. I do meet people from all walks of life from the nature of business that I am in, and lately I have been disconnected from them. I felt I was stagnating. And in a sense, I created this experience, to keep me from stagnating.

Oh my, what a ride, this was.

Yesterday, while I was in my room walking around, beseeching my guides to help me, I saw a praying mantis on top of my bed. I was startled at first, because I haven't seen one for years.

and I knew there was some sort of a reason why it appeared at that moment. And so, I searched online for the meaning and here's what I got:

The mantis comes to us when we need peace, quiet and calm in our lives. Usually the mantis makes an appearance when we've flooded our lives with so much business, activity, or chaos that we can no longer hear the still small voice within us because of the external din we've created.

A quick-list of praying mantis symbolism:

• Stillness
• Awareness
• Creativity
• Patience
• Mindful
• Calm
• Balance
• Intuition

This is a message to us to contemplate and be sure our minds and souls all agree together about the choices we are making in our lives.

Overwhelmingly in most cultures the mantis is a symbol of stillness. As such, she is an ambassador from the animal kingdom giving testimony to the benefits of meditation, and calming our minds.

An appearance from the mantis is a message to be still, go within, meditate, get quite and reach a place of calm. It may also a sign for you to be more mindful of the choices you are making and confirm that these choices are congruent.

Source: Animal Symbolism

I can't say I am fine. I am still grieving.

This is a road I have to take on my own....

For LDR's that went down the drain

I found the following article over at Tumblr.... and I know more and more people are having LDR's. I find that it does make sense. :P


and No.. this is not what I am currently feeling now. =) in fact... i'm happy... and chirpy and looking forward to the future... and yeah... learning the craft in the business that I am in. Ahhhh.. I need more like minded individuals. Ooohh... I know I'd meet them along the way. :)

anyhow... just wanted to share the article over here. ;) see ya around guys!

for the original post: DayDream

Don’t ever use distance as an excuse to break up or separate. If anything, it’s that one of you don’t feel the same about the other anymore. If you were together in the first place, it must mean that you were both committed to make it work. But later on down the road, if you say you’re separating because of distance, then I would have to disagree. Unless you’re one of those people who were in the relationship just for physical needs.

It’s not distance that makes you want to separate, it’s the level of commitment that you’re willing to give into the relationship. Because distance only makes the heart grow fonder. If you really did like the person, you’d be more committed. You’d want to talk to that person almost all the time. You’d text or call. Go out of your way just to say “Hi” or “I miss you”. It doesn’t even take a minute to send a text or just call to say hi.

Everyone needs assurance. Without it, we’re lost. It takes two to tangle, and it takes two to cuddle. If one person has no idea what the other person is thinking, how are we suppose to deal/react to the situation? It’s like being left in the pitch black darkness. Assurance is the light that keeps us going. If you’re not committed, then say so. Reassure the person that you don’t feel the same. Don’t ever keep someone waiting just because you know they will. Hearts are the last thing you should be playing with.

If you’re ever gonna end a relationship, don’t ever say it’s because of distance. That’s lame. If anything, it’s you and the decrease of commitment you want to give into the relationship. If only one person is committed, it might as well turn into unrequited love.

Dragons and Castles

last year it was one of the best years i've had...

i got what i always longed for... gaining a heart's desire is what i've always wanted...

to immerse myself to someone

but then just before the year ended...

I ended something i wished would last forever... but sometimes you just gotta go with the flow. he once told me: "only dead fishes swim with the currents"...

i was kind of taken aback when he said that. meaning, if i go with the flow... would that mean, i am dead?

only in the worldly mundane view could it be true...

about dead fishes swimming with the currents...

but, maybe he is not seeing the big picture...

because, if you see the big picture... there's no use resisting the flow if it goes from East to West right?

"the only time you feel alive is when you go against the flow.. trust me." his words.. resounded in my head. though it sounds so exciting, the prospect of being alive - i mean.. it just does not add up to what i believe in.

i frowned. trying to understand. and then it hit me.

and then i realized we came from two different programs, two different worlds...

he is somewhat so accustomed to his ways, his own rules that he doesn't fit mine.

then i realized we don't share the same values, ideals and aspirations...

there is love... but sometimes... the light of your love is painful for someone who wants to remain in darkness...

and so just like oil and water.... we will separate....

and i know..

this year... is going to be one of the best...

this year... is going to reap a million or more...

this year... i am devoting myself to LOVE more than ever before...

this year... i delight myself in the eyes of my one lover who never abandoned me... who stayed through it all... His Spirit Lives.

this year... i am spending more time with the people who supported me... who saw through me... who gave me courage..... Mom, Dad, Darlene, Paolo, Ate Ariane, Yhe, Abigail, Nay Judith, Doc Andre.. for all those mini sessions we had separately...

and for the couples who inspire me with their love... and never lacked the support...

Kuya Jong and Ate Pat, Kuya Jundi and Ate Mar, Sol and Ate Kai, Cris and Ate Jill, Kuya Carlo and Ate Ivy,

though the prince i hoped who could save me never really made it.(he did not make it through the dragon's initiation. Remember, only the initiated can go through the castle gates and make his way to the tower, if he is armed with the sword of truth and the shield of courage. the other prince dropped his along the way).. i know another one is on his way.... because i heard.. when love is not there.. it may be on it's way.

and so if you are expecting a visitor.. what do you do?

you prepare....



May your 2010 be the best you could ever wish for! :)

May LOVE rule and reign... because really... what the world needs now is just that: LOVE. :)

and that it still conquers ALL. :)